a few months ago i heard this lady i know talking about how women are always looking for what's next [maybe men do the same thing, but i have no experience in such matters]: they think "life will be better when i meet someone". THEN they think "life will be better when i'm officially dating". better when i'm engaged. better when i'm married. when i have a baby. when i have another baby. when all my kids are in school. when my kids go to college & i have my life back...

i know this is true. i've seen it. and i've thought it myself. it's
super tempting to allow this kind of thinking to take control in my head & heart. especially when having to answer
innocent questions [nope, haven't had the DTR talk yet. nope, no weekend plans yet. nope, no plan to drive across country & meet the parents. nope, nope, nope].
but if i can't enjoy
this stage-- the figuring it all out, nervous/excited, thrilled but uncertain, kinda-goofy-kinda-giddy, awkward-side-hug-back-pat phase-- then i doubt i'll find contentment in any of the later phases.
and i'm guessing the ol' mantra will prove to be true in my life: the grass will always look greener, but it probably won't BE greener.