cutting myself some slack

lately i've been super annoyed at myself for forgetting things and feeling irritable. i triple booked things for this weekend. i couldn't easily adapt my lesson for the burmese refugees on monday. i almost forgot to get books for the kid i tutor. i failed to write down another plan and almost double booked [again!] i've been super impatient with my friends for no reason at all. and i absolutely forgot my grandmom's birthday!! zoiks~

when i try to analyze my behavior, i'm reminded of my college days. when i flew around like a chicken with my head cut off. when i had to cancel appointments/ meetings because i had forgotten about something else. when i put off writing papers till the very.last.minute.

and now i'm like: "nelson, what HAS gotten into you? is this a spastic-college-kid relapse? are you falling apart completely? get ahold of yourself"

but then i remember. my grandmom just had triple bypass surgery. i spent my "vacation" doing random bits of physical labor and getting very little sleep. i had to quickly sell my old car, which i thought had been taken care of. one of my co-workers got fired after a wicked stressful drawn-out confrontation. and my grammy just died.

so i've decided to take a few deep breaths. and cut myself some slack*